Delusion

What if I told you that I’m not who you think I am?
That your imaginings are only that, a fantasy?
And I’ve tried to tell you
I really did
Remember that -
Well, I didn’t try that hard, did I?

I let you dream up the person you wanted
I was lucky you thought of me so perfectly
Until you didn’t
I sat silent – listening to you
Laughing with you
Letting you fill your ego with the depths of my attention

You told me everything and I didn’t ever tell you no
I didn’t criticize you
I fed you so, of course, you’d love me
I silenced myself for you
Wrapped you in the comfort of your own opinion
Your own voice
Flattered you
Because what else could I do?
The more I knew you, the more I craved your regard

I stood by and let you ruin yourself
Maybe I didn’t only lie to you about how much I loved you
I lied to myself